Busy!

Lately I've been so incredibly busy, working 2 jobs, having some semblance of a social life and working on a new webshow with some friends, that I've had barely any time at all to think about my cock.

This has, in all honesty, been really great. The less time I have to think about it, the less I get turned on and frustrated. The past few nights I've basically come home and gone straight to bed, where even if I wasn't locked up, I would have been too tired to jerk off, so it's been working well!

Then comes Saturday morning.

First of all, I've never really been one to sleep in, so I'm up at 8, when I don't have anything of substance to do until at least 2. Also, because I am a 22 year old dude, of course I wake up with (in this case an attempted) hard on.

Saturdays is when everything falls apart, and I am climbing the walls wanting to get at my cock.

I may have talked about this before, and if I have, I apologize...but the hardest part for me is a lack of interest by anyone else in my area being interested in chastity. When I'm locked up, my desire really isn't so much to get at my own cock, as it is to get at ANY cock. Problem is, most guys in my part of Iowa get pretty freaked out when they see the device :/

Oh well, luckily I have a pretty busy weekend and week ahead!

Realization

Today I changed my ring to a smaller one because I kept feeling like my device was going to slip off when I was at the gym today (THAT would have been an interesting discussion with my trainer...) and once I put the device back on, I turned on some porn.

I like to watch porn and tease myself when I have it on to fill the device, and make sure my cock fills up the whole thing, instead of getting all scrunched at the top (little weird, but meh).

As I was watching, I came to a realization. It may sound silly, since I put myself in this situation, but for some reason, this was like, the first time I really grasped the thought of "You're not going to cum until March 17."

I really wish I could describe better exactly how this felt. I wasn't sad or upset, but I certainly wasn't excited either. I think mostly I'm curious. Curious to see if I can make it (I hope I can, but history tells us otherwise...)

I'm back!

Ok, so I've been absolutely awful with this whole blog thing...good thing I don't write for a living (jk, I do...oops!)

So, I haven't blogged much at all because there's been nothing going on in my sex/kink life, one of the downfalls to living where I do, I guess. I've also been CRAZY busy with work lately, so this was kind of the last thing on my mind.

But now, I am back, and I am locked once again!

I have no key holder (which I HATE) so it's just up to me to keep it on.

I decided to set a specific amount of time for my device to be kept on. I decided to leave it up to fate, and used the "Chastity Bingo" function on LockedMEN.com. After the random choosing, I got four weeks, starting this past Sunday, so I'll be locked up until March 17th.

I'll try to keep up with this blog with how it's going, and all that fun stuff. Will definitely try to be better at it this time! Also, if anyone is looking to be a key holder, let me know! I enjoy this much more if someone else is in charge :D

Happy (Belated) New Years

I've been awful at this, I'm very sorry about that.

It's been about 3 weeks now since I've posted anything, which is way too long!

So it is a new year, and so far it's been pretty uneventful for me. I am still unlocked, and looking for a new key holder.

I really just don't feel like I have anything to write right now :-/. Sorry my life is so boring right now, ha.

Hopefully soon I'll have more to report!

12/17; Unlocked

Yes, I have unlocked my chastity device.

When I first agreed to lock myself up, I wasn't sure what it was I wanted. I wanted to experiment with giving up control of my cock, and having someone else take that control. I didn't really want to jump right in with someone I didn't know, so I had a friend hold the key for me. He's a great guy, but just not the right key holder for me. He too is submissive, and he just didn't have the firm and dominating hand that I needed for this.

I considered staying self locked, however I just didn't feel the same fulfillment that way. The thing that attracts me most to being chaste is not the inability to masturbate, but the submission to someone else, so self locking just really doesn't appeal to me.

I plan on staying unlocked for at least a week, and will hopefully be able to find a new key holder soon, as I truly do enjoy having my cock locked by someone else, and giving up that control.

I will of course continue to blog here, and as soon as I am locked again, you will know.

Too Submissive?

Sorry it's been so long without an update! I've been crazy busy with work...been a rough week for us at my job.

Today I'm not giving an update (cus there's not a ton to update right now...still locked up), but instead I am talking about something else.

I posed this question on Twitter (and got no responses by the way, so thanks jerks! Just kidding, you're all wonderful) and now I'll ask it here. Is it possible to be TOO submissive?

First of all, I'll start out by saying, yes, I believe it is.

For example, you can be too passive. This can also be described as the "Overly 'Yes Sir'" attitude. This is the guy who will literally say "Yes Sir" to whatever a Sir says, with absolutely no thought or questioning. They are also the subs that, when asked what they are into, or what they like, they simply respond "whatever you want, Sir." While some Sirs like this, I think it's a bit much...

As a sub, I do enjoy pleasing my Sir, and usually that involves saying "Yes" when he asks. However, I have a mind of my own, and I'm not going to just sit there and say that the Sir can do whatever he wants. I would hope that a Sir enjoys it when a boy/sub speaks up for what they want, and respects him for that. This also gets into the idea of "no limits" which could be its own post in itself.

This all comes up for a few reasons. First of all, I found someone's Recon page today that said they were looking for a permanent slave who would completely drop out of their life and basically live in the cellar of this mans house, never to be seen by anyone by him. While I generally try to reserve judgement on other peoples kinks and fetishes, something about this struck me as just too much.

Also, a sub was supposed to come up to see me today, he wanted me to dominate him (something I do on the rarest of occasions) and he was like this. He never asked questions, and his response was almost always "Yes Sir." Personally it turned me off. If I am going to Dom someone, I want someone with some give and take, not someone who is just going to lie there.

Anyway...that's my two cents...what do you all think?

Not really an update...

I've been MIA for the past few days, sorry! I've been doing a lot of thinking and talking with different people, and my thoughts were all kinda jumbled and what not, and I'm not a "stream of consciousness" type blogger, so I had to wait to reorganize my thoughts.

I'll have a post tonight for sure, so be on the lookout!