Chastity Update 12/8; Oops

So, I just shot a load. And it was amazing, although probably not kosher.

For those of you who don't know me, I'm EXTREMELY sensitive. Like, crazy. Just being hard in my cage sometimes gets me close. Today has been pretty dull, mostly just me surfing tumblr and other blogs (specifically A Breeder's Journal, because it's FUCKING AMAZING) so I decided to go for some ass play.

I pulled out the one ass plug/dildo I own (it's too big of a plug for me to actually keep in) lubed it up, sat it on my computer chair, and started fucking myself with it.

I'm not HUGE into assplay. There are occasions where I am crawling up the walls to get fucked, but usually, I kind of dislike it. Today was a crawling up the walls kinda day. I was fucking myself for a good 20-30 minutes, and it was incredible.

Then trouble started. I could feel myself close to cumming, and while I knew I shouldn't do it, it felt so good. I kept kind of edging myself, getting as close as I could without cumming, and then would stop fucking myself. I did this for another 10 minutes, and there was enough precum to make you think I had shot a load.

Then, out of nowhere, was my favorite moment in sex. That moment RIGHT BEFORE you cum, where you know it's going to happen, and there's absolutely nothing that anyone can do about it. The point of no return as I like to call it. I felt it coming, and I tried my hardest to make this the one time where I could come back from the point of no return. Unfortunately, that was not the case.

So I shot a load right through the cage, and it splattered all over the bottom shelf of my desk (which was incredibly aesthetically pleasing, as I have a black desk) and then continued to ooze out for a few minutes more (in fact, it's still oozing out now, as I write this.)

It was incredible, but it was a mistake. I know I shouldn't be cumming, especially when I'm the cause of the orgasm. Had it been at the hands of another person, that would have been different.

So from now on, no more anal play when I'm by myself, and limited porn watching, as that just gets me close as well.