Realization

Today I changed my ring to a smaller one because I kept feeling like my device was going to slip off when I was at the gym today (THAT would have been an interesting discussion with my trainer...) and once I put the device back on, I turned on some porn.

I like to watch porn and tease myself when I have it on to fill the device, and make sure my cock fills up the whole thing, instead of getting all scrunched at the top (little weird, but meh).

As I was watching, I came to a realization. It may sound silly, since I put myself in this situation, but for some reason, this was like, the first time I really grasped the thought of "You're not going to cum until March 17."

I really wish I could describe better exactly how this felt. I wasn't sad or upset, but I certainly wasn't excited either. I think mostly I'm curious. Curious to see if I can make it (I hope I can, but history tells us otherwise...)